I just recently finished college. It’s quite a surreal experience to be done with school for what will likely be the rest of my life and to enter the “real world”. I’m faced with responsibilities that always seemed far off into the distance. I have to get a job to support myself and at least think about what I want to do with my life from now on. It’s a life changing ordeal. I can’t get away with living the same way I had been in college. I have to face the things I’ve put off for most of this past decade.
For one, I don’t know what my passions are. I guess I enjoy writing once in a while. I come up with different ideas ranging from t-shirt designs to silly puns, but it’s not like I want to make t-shirts for a living or write puns for Steve Jackson games (though that would be kinda cool, I don’t know how to get into that). Right now I have to just get by. I know I like to play video games and watch some different shows. I thought for a long time I could do a website of some kind. Maybe run a blog. But I was afraid that I would be mediocre/boring and making a website that was boring would confirm it, so I put it off (plus life/school always got in the way). The other day I realized that if I just lived a normal life at some dead end job with the thought that I could do a site if I wanted to but never actually doing anything, it’s the same as being mediocre and boring. Also, now I have free time to work on a personal project so I decided it would be a good time to start. I regret not starting earlier. I’d at least have some experience in it rather than starting from scratch. But as I’ve realized with many things, the hardest part is to start and it’s better now than later, or worse, never.